Change

When Melina passed away the hardest thing to hear was “Michelle you’re never gonna be the same.” I have a hard time with that. And I struggle with the thought […]...

Greatest Love

For the last eight months I have cried every day, every single day. I really thought you could run out of tears. If you ever wondered you can’t, they always […]...

Getting Up

Grief is absolutely unpredictable at times. There are days you wake up and think okay I can do this and it seems a little easier. Don’t get me wrong I […]...

Time

Time is a very funny thing. Time feels like it is flying by but yet some days it stands still. Today is a day that the number is always going […]...

Why?

This last couple weeks have been nearly impossible. We just miss her. The firsts are so hard but just missing her excitement and craziness is even harder. But the last […]...

2020

2020. I NEVER want to see those numbers again. Then in the next breath I do. This is grief. There is never an absolute. There is never an end. It […]...

Survival

Survival. Now there is a word I thought would never be associated with my personality in my life. I have never wanted to just get by. But these days survival […]...

Six Months

The 24th of this month will be six months since I have held my baby. Six months since we physically hugged, shopped at target, got Frappuccino’s, or just laughed. People […]...

Thankful

I have sat here for days thinking about the ridiculous word thankful. I’m not sure thankful is where I am at or will ever be again. Thanksgiving is a holiday […]...

Birthday…

I can’t write on this one. In fact I can barely breath thinking about this. How is she not here for her day?Melina and I did birthdays big. Like ridiculously […]...