Birthday Week

Today I woke up to birthday week. This was a week Melina started all on her own. I have always been big on birthdays but our Melina made them over […]...

Amazement/Hate

Amazement/ HateNow those are two words you just don’t put together. Yet I feel like that’s where I am stuck at times. Talk about confusion, but that’s my heart. One […]...

September Ends

As this month comes to an end, A month that is dedicated to raising awareness to pediatric cancer I can’t help but think. We have been living in this for […]...

Pediatric Cancer

It is almost impossible for me at times to wrap my head around the fact that Melina had cancer. I know Melina had a pediatric brain tumor. I know what […]...

Keep Moving Forward

The last few weeks I can’t seem to bounce back. I have keep going but my heart has just hurt. I know it’s kindergarten and it’s crushing. All she ever […]...

Too Much

What is too much? Grief is a lot. Grief is a feeling that you get so lost in. You don’t know up from down, you just know it hurts. A […]...

The Past vs The Present

The past vs the present This week was challenging. I know I feel like I say that a lot. But this week was different. This was the first family vacation […]...

Fridays

By now everyone knows those were our days. Fridays were the day. Just Melina and mommy. Today was tough. I went a year of Fridays alone. Today I’m tired. Tired […]...

Almost a Year

It’s almost a year. Almost a year since losing one of my greatest gifts. The year keeps flashing in front of us. We all know the date and fear it […]...

Always Melina

Today was tough I had that moment where I thought a year ago I was watching my baby die. I had never felt more helpless and hopeless in my whole […]...