Big Stuff

Melina makes us all better. I hate this fact yet I love it at the same time. I hate the fact that she makes us better peopleby the tragedy she […]...

Different

Today I had to share. Because today something happened. Today my brain played a new game. With grief there is no game plan. No steps. No order. No “okay I’m […]...

Christmas Magic

It’s this time every year, at least for the last three, that my heart starts to get silently jaded. I start to just feel yucky. I start to get mad […]...

Birthday Letter

Melina I have sat down a million times to write this letter today. I have deleted and started over. I can’t do it. I’m just tired. My heart was just […]...

My Heart

In nine days she is supposed to be seven. How do you not make it to your seventh birthday? That makes no sense to me, none. A perfectly healthy baby […]...

Miss You

How can you express how much you miss someone when the one person you want to say it to you cant. I can’t send the text. I can’t leave the […]...

September

This month can be a weight. It is a constant reminder of the underfunding of pediatric cancer research. It has taken me a long time to accept the cancer word […]...

A Lot

This summer has been a lot. A lot of good. A lot of sad. A lot change. My heart is all over the place. Which I’m starting to accept as […]...

Waves

Some people say grief is like waves. Some times it catches you off guard. Sometimes you can see it coming. Other times you brace until the moment passes. While this […]...

A Weight

I have become more aware of this weight that I carry. It’s a weight I carry every where I go. Every minute of everyday. Its hard to describe. Most people […]...